Friday, December 29, 2017

All the Frills: Six Months and the Year in Review

We made it to six months! And Eleanor Elizabeth Medea just keeps getting cuter. It's also nearing the end of 2017, which seems as logical a time as any to reflect back on the year.

2017 was a pretty huge year for me. It felt a lot of times like the whole world was just going to straight to hell (thanks largely to the dangerously moronic Trump, a cadre of alt-right jackasses who just could not help but be monumental assholes, and an ever growing list of men who got rightfully outed as abusers). But in my little corner of the world, two huge things happened.

The first was that I finally published my book, which I had spent close to 10 years working on.

The second, of course, is that I had my wonderful Eleanor. But motherhood has brought, as you might imagine, its own challenges. It started off rough. The last few weeks of my pregnancy were almost intolerable and then I had a very traumatic birth experience that left me psychologically battered and damaged. I'be lying if I said it didn't take me months to come back from that and that I still have flashes of sadness and anxiety over it. I also found the first few months of motherhood to be pretty rough. I had a lot of support from family and friends and other new moms that I was fortunate enough to know, but I still felt isolated, lonely, and guilty (mostly because I found I sort of hated being at home all the time and found myself longing for my return to work, which made me question daily whether or not I was a horrible mother, and also because I HATED breastfeeding and threw in the towel on that fairly early and, according to an alarming number of people in real life and online and in the medical community, that was basically a selfish and stupid decision on my part and I was damaging my baby because of it). I don't want to make it sound like it has all been negative - it truly hasn't (Eleanor is a wonderful, curious little child and I adore her unlike anything I've ever had in my life) - but there have definitely been dark times.

I think it's important to acknowledge all these problematic times alongside the joyful ones so that I can start 2018 in the most honest and transparent way possible. I imagine that, like me, most of you have probably had a rather mixed bag of a year (I think that's probably the way it goes for almost everyone, almost all the time) and I hope you all have a tranquil New Years and enter 2018 refreshed and centred and filled with optimism.

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Wednesday, December 27, 2017

Sweater Love

I’m going to be so sad when this sweater finally falls utterly apart on me (it’s already got a few holes in it). I love it so and dearly hope it will last for at least a little while longer – I also wear it non-stop each October (I mean the skull print is just perfect for my favourite month).

leggings: ASOS / dress: Zara / shoes: Winners / necklace: Stella and Dot / sweater: ModCloth

Wednesday, December 20, 2017


I am beyond thrilled that I fit into this dress again. I only got like three wears out of it last year before pregnancy made me too big for it – I am smitten with the cosmic print.

dress: Simons / leggings: ASOS / booties: Aldo / jacket: H&M / sunglasses: Aldo

Friday, December 15, 2017

All the Frills: Festivus Edition

Well, it’s that time of year again – Festivus! While I didn’t bother setting up my second tree this year (usually it goes in the basement but since Eleanor came we basically don’t ever hang out there now – hopefully we’ll go back to it when she’s older) but I did fully decorate the main floor and the patio area. As usual, my d├ęcor goal was “so this is what it feels like to live inside of a Christmas light.”

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Wednesday, December 13, 2017

Winter Has Finally Foiled Me

Worn for a walk in the fall – I tried to cram as many of them in before the weather totally turned on me and getting out with the baby became difficult. I feel a bit like I’ve been hoisted on my own petard (as the kids say…kids say that, right?), what with my love of winter and all being complicated this year by the reality of having a baby, which means I can’t get out as much as I’d like to already and winter just augments that.

leggings: Old Navy / shirt: Old Navy / shoes: Toms / shawl: ModCloth

Tuesday, December 12, 2017

Toughest Mom In Town

I love this outfit so much – I seriously felt like the toughest mom in town when I wore this. These studded loafers were such a good investment!

pants: ASOS / jacket: Joe Fresh / shirt: Dynamite / shoes: Strategia / necklace: Simons

Friday, December 8, 2017

All the Frills: All the Magnets

Welcome, to my geeky curated fridge magnet collection! I’ve got Anna of Denmark, Elizabeth I, a Yale magnet in commemoration of my grad school days, a Holyroodhouse one (one of my favourite places in Edinburgh), a goofy shot of the helpmeet and I at the Edinburgh dungeon, and a lovely photo of some Salem witches rendered in magnet form. All carefully selected and carefully arranged…because I’m funny that way.

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Monday, December 4, 2017

Date Night

My lovely parents recently stayed with Eleanor (she loves getting to hang out with her grandparents) so my helpmeet and I could have a night out and see a movie. It was so nice to be out for a bit – I mean I’m out all the time with Eleanor when I take her to library programs, to visit friends and family, etc, but being out solo and doing things other than running errands and grocery shopping was really nice. I consider myself tremendously fortunate to have my parents as a support system. They’ve been such an amazing help (coming over to sit with Eleanor so I can clean the house and get caught up on laundry, cooking meals for us, the list just goes on and on).

leggings: ASOS / shirt: Simons / jacket: New Look / booties: Primark

Friday, December 1, 2017

All the Frills: Five Months and We're Still Hanging In There

Eleanor is now on her way to being six months old! I can’t believe how quickly the time has flown by – especially since, when you’re in the thick of it, it often seems to move agonizingly slowly (the crying that you thought would last for hours, the sleepless weeks that just felt like an eternity – seriously, they call it the longest shortest time for a reason).

She is the most wonderful little person to hang out with and I feel so lucky when I’m with her. I only ever wanted one child and I desperately wanted that one child to be a daughter (so badly that I never even really admitted it to anyone for fearing of someone jinxing it). I experienced two miscarriages, a gruelling pregnancy, and an extremely terrifying birth experience but, in the end, all my dreams came true. I’m really, terrifically lucky.

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